best days spent...

best days i've ever had was with this person. and he doesn't even know that i've been in love with him since i first laid eyes on him. hehe.

4th graders. that was the very first time i saw him. hehe. i kept telling myself to be attracted to this other guy because he was cuter and all, but i know i wasn't fooling anyone. especially me. hehe. and i told most of our classmates a false crush. hehe. ayaw umamin eh noh? hehe.. and tindi mo teh!! 

anyway, there's only one specific reason why i liked this guy.HE WAS HIM. i remember making a promise to myself on that very day, that if this guy stood up to me one day and professed his love for me, i'd make him wait for two weeks and then say "yes." haven't forgotten about it ever since. though i was just a kid then, i knew what i was saying.

as years passed by, i've had a few ups and downs, a few relationships and now a son. however, i had never forgotten about him. never. no. never. i had always kept that memory with me wherever i go and whoever i was with. that's why i'd always turned them all down. it was all because of this boy. this guy who showed up on the eve of my birthday of this very year. 

I'm keeping this promise with me. i'm not afraid anymore. so don't be as well.. yeah i know i lied to you guys. i had to! sekreto nga eh, diba? ^^

keep falling

i've fallen for you already and it's makin' me feel scared cause
it's been such a long time since someone has made me feel this way
but i don't want to belong in your arms (no, not yet)
cause in the end i know i'll be the only one who'll be hurt

still there's something about you that's still making me doubt
don't even ask me why cause i'm still trying to figure that one out
it's drivin' me crazy cause you keep poppin' up in my head
and i hate what i'm feeling inside of me, but..

* i cannot help it
no matter how hard i try, still i
i'm still falling for you
and it's making me feel like a fool
and i feel so helpless
cause no matter how hard i distract myself, still i
i keep falling for you
oh, what am i to do?
i'm falling in love with you

fin